In my darkest hour

I’ve thought about suicide tonight. 

If only I had the courage and the strength.

I’ve had a day that I don’t want to repeat. I can’t even begin to describe the pain I am feeling both physically and emotionally. And even if I could, who cares ?. 

I am powerless. I have no influence, no say. And I’m not taken seriously. 

My arguments are just brushed aside. I am blind sided, set up to fail and when I try to explain matters my explanations are treated as excuses and not given fair hearing. 

No matter who I turn to I feel betrayed, belittled and ignored. 

I am totally alone.