“I think you should stop taking it if it’s not working. Slowly decrease the dose and wean yourself off it”
” I’d like you to increase the dose, to the maximum, over the next few weeks”
The first is my psychiatrist
The second is my neurologist
Talking about the same drug.
Is it working ? . May be. Do I feel better ?. Not exactly but the pain is less sharp.
Has my headache gone ?. No, but it’s less obvious and now feels more like someone pressing hard on my forehead.
“I’m going to prescribe you a new drug, at half dose. Let’s build that up”
New drug. Overwhelming nausea. I mean overwhelming. Constant grittiness. And a dry mouth like I’ve sucked the Sahara dry, mouth.
So many drugs. So many side effects. So many conflicting side effects. Off one, on one, up a dose, down a dose.
Do they work ?. Obviously some work on things I can’t see like my blood sugar or cholesterol. Some are designed to reduce pain.
Then they give you diarrhoea, sweats and nausea in return.
I have no idea.
One says one thing, another says something else.
Round and round we go.
Like a Teddy Bear,
One step, two step,
Who’s vomiting over there ? ?.