What’s been happening ?
It’s been six weeks ?
-watching me carefully. Gauging my reaction-
Well ? When we last met you mentioned …
Nothing’s changed ?
-creaking chair. Pen placed carefully on top of pad on his lap. Fingers steepled-
Have you tried ?
(Internally processed – yes, I have tried. I’ve tried so damn hard)
You’ve tried everything ?
Yes. I’ve tried everything. But I don’t know what I’m doing. Can’t you see how helpless I am. Can’t you see what I need or hear what I need. I’m so lost!
-no, you can’t see–
-clear signs of disappointment. He doesn’t believe me-
Right. See you in 6 weeks. Perhaps you could …
(Sense of frustration, desperation and overwhelming need to scream- carefully contained as I fight back the tears)
– walk to car-
How did it go today ?